I really don't know why I havent written on this journal except for tat first time when I had just joined Deviant... I actually enjoy writting journals quite a lot, and that's why I have decided to do so more often.

I had not been here often because I rescently went to Turkey, can you believe it Turkey!!!! it was awsome and then I came back to real life with all those complicated problems with friends and men and loads of home work... although I wrote a quite good essay on death and received lots of congratulations

and then my birth day!!! yay!!! it was great 3 days ia a row of celebration... and now I'm 16... god that sounds so bad... its like Sixteen, you know what I mean?? n o longer fifteen, no!! now I'm supposed to be a woman and to be able to drive and everything, but I don't really feel old enough, I look old but I don't feel it... everyone seems so ready to be oder end thy think it's the best thing ever to be independent, but why?? 4-5 years ago my mum would save me from everything, she would spoil me and I didn't have to worry about anything... and as years have gone by, all those nice things have disappeard, of course there are other things to replace them, but there are also so many stressful thigs that make me wish I could go back and take more advantage of those good old times...

so, if you are still young, PLEASE just enjoy, don't try to grow faster, dont worry, eventually it WILL happen, no reason to rush...